Life's so much better in the weekends, at least i wont feel the lonliness at home. But it's kinda bored uh. Holidays are starting, dont know why i feel insecured. I feel something amiss , like i've lose something important.

You've not talked to me since last night, i feel bad. He told me that maybe you're asleep ? I doubt so. But i rather believe that you're asleep, i didnt want to believe the truth ): Maybe it's me that i'm thinking too much ? I feel uneasy. Everything i do reminds me of you, i guess it aint that easy to let go. It hurts alot to know that you dont give a damn, it hurts more to know that i've to not give a damn too. You never fail to make me guessing, predicting what you're doing, how are you feeling, are you sad, etc. Now I'm musing what to do. Knowing I will always think of you.

What's done can't be undone. I know i've hurt you. I'm sorry for it. Maybe what you wanted wasnt a sorry, and i know not all sorry can be forgiven. But i'm really apologetic. You may hate me, dislike me. But that wouldnt change anything. I really feel very bad everytime when i know you're like cursing me, insulting me, or scolding me. I know i deserve it. I accept it if those could ease your anger.

I shall continue blogging later, gonna go out for dinner. Korean bbq buffet, this could at least cheer me up alittle today ba.