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Monday, October 31, 2011


Too much expectation, just cause too much disappointment.

I shouldn't held high hopes, i shouldn't have so much expectation.
All i held was a little hope.

Silly me.
I could only constantly tell myself, i have already used to it.
Constantly distracting myself or rather hypnotizing myself.
Tired of smiling, tired of pretending.

I wanna be myself.



So true.
This is what they called, true friend.

Recorded at 7:24 AM by Phyllis.
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Friday, October 28, 2011


This never happens in me...




Fuck that bitch who stoled her away from me.



Karma will strike you one day,



even if it don't, i will.








Will miracle happen ?




Silence is a girl's loudest cry...
But is definitely better then not even texting !!!


Kay, all these is damn random. i'm just bored being stucked at home. It's raining heavily now.
Just came home from my piano lesson. mummy went to work. daddy went out with brothers..


sigh. i'm alone. ):
Some things made me feel damn hurt, so i decided to blog.


Or maybe it's just me thinking too much.
I feel like crying out loud, but something just suppressed by heart.




Sometimes, i just need some listening ears. But there's none.



Sometimes, i need a shoulder. There isn't any for me.


Sometimes, i need a punching bag but all i had was my pillow.











My heart just feels the hurt , the pain...

Recorded at 10:19 PM by Phyllis.
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Thursday, October 27, 2011





i'm bored, very bored, extremely boredddd! :<

Home Sweet Home at around 1030! Luckily Vanessa and me left early, if not i think i now still on the way.


Phew..


Went for School Excellence Award Ceremony Concert, of course it's not me getting award. LOL.


Woke up at arnd 8 plus 9 today..


wash up, bathe and start to watch my show, till sam called me ~! hehe.


She was damn bored and wanted to come my house!


Then arnd 11plus 12 , vanessa reached my house. and we went down my house there to eateat. After that zixuan called so i fetch them at the mrt station.. Mr Yup, Zixuan, celest , Vanessa, and me then reached my hse arnd 1330? ;o


Gosh, awkward max.


where have teacher come student house one. -.- but nvm luh.


AND swear that this will be the first and last time i let any teacher come to my hse. He freakin' just treated my house like his own -'- argh.


He asked zixuan they all to put on their shoes in my hse, what's more? He wanted to go up to my room to see-.- i was like wtf?!?!?!?


It's MY privacy k!


Sigh.


it was 2hours of sufferring before, mars' mummy came to fetch us to school :D Then we makeup and everything lo. Dinner sucks, one dollar burger + one packet drink.


School damn damn budget.


Camwhore and play in the performing arts room while wating for performance to start !!(:










I love this photo like ttm<3 even though can't really see the faces! hehe:D set-ed it as my fb dp!! :D Performance was ok-ok , not up to standard. But quite a number of people told me it was grear so, IT MADE MY DAY!!! <3

Anyways daddy, getting iphone 4s tomorrow. Hope mummy would be nice enough to give me a iphone 3Gs. :P #random.
My leg's damn pain, burning ):





ME ACTING CUTE!! ^^v



Me with Miss Joann David. She's damn pretteh <3

While waiting in the hall :)



White and Blacksssss!!! <3 hahahah! i like this photo too. #cool

Andi and Me!! :D Hahaha! i like this photo, it's nice! :D



Miss Charlene Lye and Me!! (:



Vanessa, Mars, and Me <3 From sec 1 till now. <3

Vanessa, Ellena, and Me ! Ellena tryin' to be tall! But fail :P



Good Friend <3

We was so bored that we took photos of our shoes :P

Today was fun, hehe <3 Fun , Love , Peace ! ^^v









I haven't got over you, someone teach me how please...
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Wednesday, October 26, 2011


H.A.P.P.Y D.E.E.P.A.V.A.L.I !!! :D

Damn boring at home, can't go out -.- argh.
Mummy went work early in the morning. never see her for 2 days ler, but it dont seem to make a difference to me.
Woke up > eat > practice piano > nua in my bed > eat > laptop
This is my life #pig'slife!! Fuckin' no life sia me.
Actually planned to go out with van to shopshop der. sighsigh.
Tomorrow get report book ler *anxious*
Gonna hug buddha's leg. hehehe!

Heheheh kay , what a boring day.
I swear that i'm so bored at home the i'm doing th "like th status" thingy on fb.
LOLOL!
Went through my phone's gallery, found some old photos. Remind me of alot of things..



Guess who wrote this for me?
I can't believe i still kept it. haha!




I remember lyman used to give me lollipops ! ^^




My 14th bday card from marcella ! <3 Damn touched after readingg it again! :D How i wished we could be as close as last time.




brother <3




Best Friend <3


Kay i'm being very random today, cause i'm veli veli bored!! ): Shall upload some VERY long ago videos too! ^^





Marriage D' Armour. One of the songs i'm gonna play this friday.

oh yea, gonna perform this fri for the school event ceremony. whatever that is. :/ sigh. somehow lookin' forward to it too! :D

I look damn cui in the video, so yea.




Craving for koil honey milk tea now :<




I wanna know why.
Feeling fade, but memories stay,

Recorded at 1:03 AM by Phyllis.
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Sunday, October 23, 2011
I never felt secured.

so true

Feelings fade ; People change.

Someone save me from all this pain.



Would you?

Imma extra in this home.
You wanna disown me?
you dont have to. You won't even a father to me.
This home don't even seem like one to me.
It felt like a cage to me.
I feel so tied up. The more you try to control me, the more i'l struggle and rebel. This home only make me have more hatred and tears.
No one understands. Or it's just me who deserve all these.





Life's the hardest subject that i will never pass.
Recorded at 2:38 AM by Phyllis.
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Saturday, October 22, 2011

Today, was a "busy" day. :/
I went from home > bishan > orchard > City hall > somerset> novena > somerset > home!
Hahaha! Fun fun ;D
Had fun with van, sam and joan ^^

Left home at around 2 to meet geraldine at whitley busstop , to head to fareast shopping centre. (:
Then sam was rushing me, so left there and FLY to marina square to meet her and settle somethings. Some people act one nicee only -.- After that went somerset mrt to pass friend sth, then picked van up from TLL at united square. Then we headed to somerset tgt to find Joan and sam! So, we went shopping.Bought a bag with van :D heheheh^^ i like it, then we went to shop arnd at cine . Had a new ear stud, and some hairband. We got bored and went to flea :D
I NEARLY GOT DEAF, I SWEAR :(
Shop around , and got someone nail polish.
We went to scape, and got scared by ghost.

The situation was dam embarrassing !!
we got scared by a ghost, van sam joan run towards the sliding glass door to escape as they got chased by the "ghost" . alot ppl was staring at us ler. then the funniest thing is instead of running out,they bang onto the glass door.
I swear that the impact was freakin' huge. Everybody started laughing,i was damn embarrassed. The secenrio was freakin funneh!!!


Hahaah we managed to escape, then we went to the basement flea to shopshop(:
After that my stomach was growling so went bag to 313 to eat eat <3 YUMZ YUMZ !
Eatin' my milky bar now<3 hehehe . gonna watch my hk drama then sleep :D







I want your attention.
Recorded at 8:54 AM by Phyllis.
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Friday, October 21, 2011


Fear, was always a part of me. It never left me.
i hate to live in fear, but i just couldnt get this feeling of me.
I had never live without fear, different kind of fear each day.
It may seem sacarstic, but when i'm alone and quiet and tend to feel fear.
fear that something bad will happen. I don't like living in fear.







You're still here in my heart.





L.O.O.K
I swear it's friggin' swollen and colourful!!!
And it's damn pain! ): ):
The bruise is bulging out !! =.=' hahaha!
Hope it would go down soon :P

No work today, was suppose to meet Vanessa and sam.
Last minute, sam say she couldn't make it . -
always last minute de, this girl. ><
hope tmr she won't last minute.
going out with van, sam and joan tmr!
Hope the plan won't be cancelled LAST MINUTE !!! ):
hehe!

Shall go watch my hk drama now, hehe.
Then practice piano later! :D

P.S Hey, anyone who pass by my blog please leave me a tag in my chatbox please. Thanks<3

"I’m strong because I know my weaknesses. I’m wise because I’ve been foolish. I laugh because I’ve known sadness."
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Wednesday, October 19, 2011


L.O.V.E ?
Haha, joke.
Failling too deep hurt so hard.

School sucks today. Was alone in school today.
Everybody pon school -.- actually wanna escape de, but sigh.
Why my parents cant be more open minded ?

"Trust means everything, but once it's broken sorry means nothing."
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Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Read a article about dreams ytd night. Is it true?
someone. Refer this link to understand in detail about causes of dreams.

What Does it Mean When You Dream about Someone?
To know, what it means when you dream about a person, we can make use of several theories for interpreting it. If it is someone you know, the most probable and common theory would be that you have been thinking about that person way too much. Specially, when you dream about someone, it is very likely that you were thinking about that person when you fell asleep. This creates an imprint of your thought on your subconscious mind, which gets reflected in your dreams. But, going by theory, when you dream about someone, it has more to do with certain aspects like their personality, or the relationship you shared with them, rather than the person itself. These people may appear as representatives of their qualities which you wish to inculcate, or else you already possess but are unaware of. If you are under a lot of stress, you might dream of a person who has been the cause of stress in your past, or someone who has led a very stressful life themselves. Whereas, seeing a favorite person or a peaceful personality denotes the peace and calm in your life right now.

From : http://www.buzzle.com/articles/what-does-it-mean-when-you-dream-about-someone.html

Hahahah, was thinking alot ytd night. Stayed up till 2 plus 3. I swear that i was tired like one dog ! ):

Woke up, asked mummy if i could skip school today. She dont let me! hmph >:( but after that i also managed to escape (Y) ! hehehe! Went to vanessa's house to slack today! fun max! ^^ Sushi was great! Monopoly deal was awesomeeee! i was like damn childish =.='' hahahah! But i like it this way :) hehe! after went to gymnasium and train! :o hahah i swear i'm fuckin' fat ! hahahah lose 160 plus calories just now ^^ but i think i'll gain back in an hour time :P heheh. shall watch my show, then bathe and head out (: hahaha.
I hope miracle will happen, but i wish that this feeling will fade soon..
If i told you not to leave, would you stay?
I love this song, hidden meaning behind the lyrics



Imy, it's been a week or so .
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